Bad Day At The Office
10 July 2008 number of clients = 0 number of calls = 0 it seems been a call boy isnt as easy as I first thought. I read some of Belle de Jours blog last night (diary of a call girl) for the first time. I dont know how she was so fearless when she started & just went & did it. I think that shes my new idol well i say new but ive never had a idol before witch is strange. Its 3:30pm & i have such a bad headache it almost feels like a hangover alltho i didnt have anything to drink last night. I wander why i havnt had any clients yet i bet i deffinetly would in london infact the population of london is 3M more than this whole country so i think id be sure to get a client. I wounder if theres a market for been a call boy in yorkshire i wounder if there is any call boys at all in yorkshire probably rent boys for sure. I might phone my ex who text me the other day ask him if he can lend me the money to get me back to the UK this country is shit. I could never tell him tho what ive decided to become even tho i havnt actually had any business yet. I joked once with him & said i was going to become a rent boy, he got all angry and said if i ever did that then he would never talk to me again i expect thats the attitude that everyone is going to have with me if they find out. I wounder if ill ever be able to tell anyone or if ill live a double life. I dont think tho if i led a double life that id ever be able to keep the 2 seperate. I was thinking last night about how if i didnt find the client attractive at all that i might not be able to cum & if thats what they wanted that they might not be happy with me. I wounder what Karo would say if she found out. Karo (name changed) was like my mother back in the UK she was sooo nice to me & i loved her as a mother & i hope she the same loved me like a son. I miss her terribley she used to say to me what am i like when i did something bad i doubt that shed be so forgiving this time. I was reading how rent boys dont value themselves or something like that so i started thinking do i not value myself (then my cureosity turned to anger at the people that would judge) so what if i dont value myself its non of there business. That reminds me im going on a healthy eating diet to try & imporve me in whatever way i can (not that im fat) all tho i have put wait on sice i was last in the UK i went form 65kg to 73kg i feel soo fat when you look at it as a number it seems alot. I wounder how you try & improve as a call boy there should be a manual for this kind of thing (101 Call-Boy For Dummies) maybe if i ever get a client i could write the book. Well i havnt done much today other than cleaned my room (like a normal 17 year old) well saying that i bet theres plenty of 17 year olds that are on the game. I hope people reading dont compare me to the drug using benefit claiming people out there doiong tricks to support there habbit ive never been on the jobseekers (or whatever they call it) in my life & i dont take drugs im just a lad trying to make a living.
Well im going to get off now i could write all day about my thoughts but id bore anyone who read this blog. Wish me luck in getting my first client (fingers crossed) & if your in London watch out im on my way.
Scott (witch is my call boy name)
(i think this is the longest blog post ive ever written)
